Love....

Today.... is the last day of Year 2009. Officially...i have ended my previous relationship.... for more than a week. Nothing else i could do... from now onwards, i don't need to travel up and down to Singapore. Yet month of December, lots of unexpected things had happened. Something, which i think i could not bear it anymore...it's unbearable for me. I am truly truly SORRY~

懂得爱

一直以来，我都认为懂得爱的人，的确会被伤害最深。因为你懂得爱了，你对爱情所企求的，更会提高。把企求提高了，办不到时，最大的受伤者往往是你自己，而并不是对方。然而，有些朋友告诉我，懂得爱的人，的确不会被伤害最深。因为这些人懂得如何玩这爱的游戏，懂得玩弄感情，懂得几时要加重和放松。高明的他们往往不会是受伤者。也许曾经承受过无数的伤害吧，如今的他们变得更加坚强了，会保护自己，也不再完完全全地相信爱情了。他们说 “我伤害你，忠是觉得被你伤害我好得多，我不想受伤，我没的选择，我只能伤害你。”

可能他们已经猛然醒觉了。不想再次的受伤害，只好选择伤害对方。昔日的感情，或许伤透了他们脆弱的灵魂和内心。但是，他们不曾想过吗？伤害别人的时候，同时的他们，不觉得疼吗？人是充满感情和感觉的灵魂，我相信，同时伤害对方的你，你也渐渐地正在伤害自己。你很像演变角色，你宁愿伤害别人，不允许自己受伤害。结果呢？你也是受伤了。虽然演变了角色，分别的，你只是选择先伤害对方，不允许对方先伤害你。终结时，两人都被伤透了。。。

选择毫无保留的伤害对方，好不如让自己毫无保留的爱对方吧！爱和伤害？我会选择爱对方，我也不想再次伤害别人。只少爱了也无怨无悔，不是吗？我也不会感到歉疚，也不曾感到对不起你。

爱过了，分手后，也不会互相埋怨。只留下许多美好和甜秘的回忆。偶而，午夜梦回时，也会梦起你，联想起你。你那温柔笑容，成熟稳重和刚强冷漠的样子。当时的我，被你着迷了。爱过了你，也被你爱过我，也是一种幸福。你曾经在我的生命中出现过，也是一种幸福。虽然你狠狠地伤害了我，却令我今天更加懂得如何去疼爱我身边的人。因为我不想像你，伤害我所爱的人。我选择了爱他，就不会伤害他。这就是曾经被伤害过的女子所说出的话语。。。

Published on Harian Indonesia 星洲日报, year of 2008~

这一时刻

那一时刻，那么战战兢兢的我，非常的害怕你会离我远远的。女人的直觉预告我，说有一天，你并会离开我。等到我们彼此之间，心灵上最靠近对方时，你就会把我甩开。一直以来，占有着你。如今的我，已经失去你了。你走了，我也不曾向人诉苦过。只能说我们是有缘无份吧。

人，总是充满感情的灵魂，沮丧的回忆，往往难以被忘掉。最近，是那么柔弱的我，偶而也会联想起你。没上班时，大部分的时间都会待在家里，看看电视和写写故事。曾经的他，告诉我，他说“月亮，我爱的是她，对不起。别再次打电话给我了。如果你难过的话，你去拿一张纸，把全部不开心的心情，一笔接一笔的写下，好吗？"从那一天起，当不开心时，心情超低落时，我就会写，把那低落的心情都痛痛快快的写下来！然而，当我开心时，我也是会写的。把美好的回忆一笔一笔的写下。

刚刚，有少许的纳闷。恍然之下，很想打扫房子。十一年了，將要踏入第十二年了。感慨的，我的房子仍然没什么改变，也没什么大的差别。从第一天，欢欣地我搬进来时，直到如今，床，衣柜和化妆桌子都是站在原位，不曾移动过。只是我桌上的相架。从和男朋友的合照，如今已经换了我和父母亲和弟弟，一起拍的毕业照片。想了一下，都有一段时间了，没放上和男朋友合照的照片。曾经何时的我，也不再对爱情那么的顽固了。渐渐地，看辽阔了多。你想某某一些事物企求的高，对等的，你也许还回的只是悲伤残酷的失望。那时所企求的，统统都消散了。。。

能驯服一段感情的，只是缘份。有了缘份，你们就会奔流不息，不顾一切和奋不顾身的走在一起。缘份已尽了，你哀哭乞求也是无用的。到了这一时刻，我仍然相信缘份。缘份会让你在无意中相遇，邂逅一位你一直所等待的人。虽然是首次的相遇，不过就好像一见如故，那就是缘份。。。

Published on Harian Indonesia 星洲日报, year of 2008~

这段爱情故事

“OH。。。宝贝！！！MERRY CHRISTMAS！！！。。。十二点了！！！”

我听见了我的BABY-G手表的闹钟在“BIBIBIBI” 的发出铃声。 然后，好自然的。。。我向前右边，吻了他的嘴唇。那一次，是我们首次吻上对方柔顺的嘴唇。

他说。。。“宝贝。。。MERRY CHRISTMAS！！！小心啊，我正在开车，前面有 ROAD BLOCKED, 警察看到你吻我，我们就糟糕了。。。哈哈哈！！！”

“啊。。。是啊。。。OOOPPPSSSS。。。。对不起，警察叔叔~”

就这样。。。我们两人就开始了这段爱情故事。

我感觉好像发了一场梦，或许我应该说。。。我好像正在发梦。甜甜蜜蜜的梦，我真的很不想不想醒过来。就让我。。。继续的在梦里头，梦游吧。

离开了你。。。

第六天。。。我已经和他分开第六天了。

这一个我们两人都无法想象的结局。我的心真的感觉到非常愧疚。因为两人如果在一起时，都不能甜丝丝的过每一分一秒，那还有什么意义呢？所以。。。我终于鼓起勇气，放掉这一段一年多的感情。或许，爱情是自私的。

或许你不懂得，你以为我不想要。其实，我真的有想过要嫁给你。我也傻傻地有偷望过许多婚纱的照片。结果。。。我们的感情出现了许多沮丧的裂痕。那种疼痛的裂痕，于是修补了，还是会无时无刻地隐隐作痛。

你说。。。“月，难道从今天开始你想要吊儿郎当过你的生活吗？？？只是继续写你的博客吗？？？”

听了，我并没有生你的气。。。因为我懂得或许我不应该提出这个选择。对不起。。。

若是我不提出的话。。。我就会永永远远地活在模糊的世界里。我不想，真的不想，也不心甘情愿这样子度过我的下半辈子。

答应我，你要好好地保重自己好吗？谢谢你。。。一直以来对我的爱护和照顾。我们还是好朋友。

戴愛玲-累格

你說　不是所有愛情　都能夠釀成一首　流行歌
我說　不是所有分手　都能夠再虛偽的　做朋友
反正愛情裡頭　誰先放棄誰就是第三者
何必重蹈覆轍　愛已經累了
無法再負荷

你聽了很多　你說了很多　你都沒有錯　
錯在我太寂寞

誰居心叵測　誰存心攪和　不必再挑撥　
我現在只想撤
Let it go 別再說　Let it go 別挽留

得不到　斷不了　誰又曾想過　
闖進愛裡頭　心整個累格
有太多假設　有太多揣測　幻滅這一刻　
任誰都逃不過
從纏綿悱惻　到彼此沉默　愛情這首歌　
你跟我key不合

淚已夠　別再說　累已夠　別挽留

我不好，对不起~

感觉。。。好复杂。昨晚，守护天使和我说。。。“你要好好珍惜他。他就是可以令你哈哈大笑的人。”

“但是。。。我。。。我。。。我。。。”

我安静了。

我不懂得。。。为何我最需要你的时候，你却把我推开远远的。为何当我最爱你的时候，你不珍惜我。为何当我很想念你的时候，想和你说一声“我想你，我爱你，”你却不理不睬我。为何当我最想收到你的短讯和来电时。。。往往，我到是傻傻地等待。如今。。。这一切或许不再重要了。或许。。。我。。。我。。。我。。。已经。。。。。。。~

我还好怕，要再次度过这些悲伤的日子。我也没勇气。。。再继续勇敢的面对这一切。或许，我不够好吧，我不够体谅你，我不够了解你的工作压力。

守护天使，请你告诉我，我应该怎么办呢？我真的好累。他却往往不会懂得，我真的累死了。

我很清醒。。。我并没有模糊。我很清楚的懂得我所要和追求的是什么。

这是我。。。我有则各做这个选择。我不好，都是完完全全我的错，对不起~

SAYING I LOVE YOU~Wonder Girls

You’d always ask me

how come you never say "I love you?"

do you really love me?

But you know

I wanted something more sweeter

I want to confess to you just like those lovers from movies

so that you won’t forget

I’ve waited for the white snow

I’ll confess to you now

the words I’ve held back

I love you

your smile brighter than the sunset

your two hands that embraced me

I love you, I love you

I promise that I will never leave you

I will always tell it to you face-to-face

You ask me what’s to hesitate about, is it that hard?

I want to hear what you got to say

But you know

I wanted something more special

I want a special day I can always remember

so that it won’t pass forgotten

I’ve waited for the white snow

I’ll confess to you now

the words I’ve held back

I love you

your smile brighter than the sunset

your two hands that embraced me

I love you, I love you

I promise that I will never leave you

I will always tell it to you face-to-face

I don’t want to separate with you

not even a single moment

when I lean on you

I hope the time will stop

I love you

I love you

your smile brighter than the sunset

your two hands that embraced me

I love you, I love you

I promise that I will never leave you

I will always tell it to you face-to-face

I love you

I love you

loving you, loving you

I love you

DOMINO'S Pizzas...simply delicious :P

PIZZAS!!!!!!!!!! I love Pizzas!!!~

I don’t know…since when I was addicted to Pizzas!!! I seriously....preferably DOMINO’S PIZZAS…rather than PIZZA HUT. Honestly~ DOMINO’S bake a sinful and dainty Pizza…you can really really crave and die for it :P

I was longing for SEAFOOD TOMYAM on the previous day…but I couldn’t manage to have it. SIGH…SOB SOB!!! Promise is a promise, you have promised me to bring me a sinful TOMYAM ok…I will note this down. Hahahaha :P You can't run away please... ^_^

Yesterday evening…was the best time to have Pizzas…call for a delivery. Dad wasn’t at home…he was out with friends and was already a drunken master when he got back in the midnight. I wished I could drink like my Dad. He drinks like a FISH~Gulp gulp gulp gulp...and doesn't even get drunk :-(

Aloha Chicken :p I love Pineapples very much.... :P

Brother claims… “I don’t want Pizzas le..you call le..only one Pizza for yourself ok…I am very full, had fried rice in the noon.”

*Call only one Pizza delivery for myself...people will think i am insane, they won't bother me i guess??? And you will see me eating sinfully the Pizza like a witch...no way ok!!! I am not so selfish please~

I say “Come on, let’s have Pizzas…you don’t like Pizzas, don’t bluff…I will call a delivery…see I have got the leaflet, DOMINO’S PIZZAS!!! You need to have dinner also right???”

Brother claims…in a giggling voice “I don’t want la…. i have rice, I can eat rice!!!”

Oh seriously…he doesn’t want Pizzas??? That’s weird…impossible. Who can really resist Pizzas??? It’s irresistible right??? PIZZAS………..OK!!!!

I say in a confident voice… “ I order this…it comes along with NESTLE ice-cream too….you choose which one you want ok, the KIT KAT Drumsticks or the NESTLE MILO…”

Brother says… he was playing with his eyebrow and cheeky eyes… “Ice-cream??? Ok, I want the KIT KAT one ok. Hihihihihi....”

Really, it arrived really fresh. Lovely~ No surcharge and tax as well...I like it :P Free delivery.

Once I reached the Operator… she was nice and polite…she asked me…as a procedure. “Do you have anyone at home?”

I answer… “Oh ya…of course, me…my brother and my dog…KAKAKAKAKAKA!!!!!!"

She laughs out loud hilariously…. :P

Their trustable motto is…. If PIZZAS failed to reach you within 30minutes…you will get a free PIZZA voucher.

Well, I was’t that lucky…once the SPIDERMAN has reached in front of my house. He showed me his mobile phone…he said… “Just on time…”

Ooooo….ok….it reminds me…the SPIDERMAN movie, who used to become a "PIZZAS" delivery boy :P

PIZZAS reached at 1958hours…exactly nicely 30minutes…not even a minute earlier and later. SIGH…I didn’t have luck for the voucher!!! SAD…. :p

Apparently my Brother who claimed that he was very fulfilling….ended up he ate 4 slices of PIZZA ok!!! See~LIAR!!! I knew you simply love PIZZAS!!!!!!

Classic Chicken....two chickens, actually i wanted to order Seafood Temptations very much, but my family don't take seafood. SIGH~Hihihihi :P

Dilemma...

She is really in DILEMMA. But she is not a MALICIOUS person.

She wishes…to be with a person she cared and loved most for the rest of her LIFE.

So….ok, well, I am in DILEMMA!!!~

I am really………..in DILEMMA...and maybe in DEEP SHIT too :P

27 years old of today… yet I am in DILEMMA once again and maybe a decision to deliberate soon.

Seriously, I am a strong person right… need to reponder each and everything~

My PRINCE CHARMING :p

Wuahahahahaha…had a good night sleep all night long. Dozed off while in the midst of replying my friend’s text messages. I was too exhausted. Never really got a chance rest well ever since after I returned from Singapore.

This was funny…. :P

This am, I got awoken at 7 in the morning. My mom was still in her dreamland. I had an urge, natural's call, I wanted to go to the washroom. Hahahaha….that’s why I woke up!!! Kicked my ass out from the comfy bed…was wobbling like an Octopus to reach to the air-conditioned switch. I was freezing in cold. I had to switch off the air-conditioned definitely… :p

Once I returned from the washroom, had my standing fan switched on. Reached to the comfy bed, covered myself with duvet…checked my handphone and continued my sleep. Got a text message from a friend…replied him and wished him had a wonderful morning ahead as well :P In another minute…I swept myself into the LALALALA land already. My handphone was in the opened position@slided up since currently I am using SONY ERICSSON G705 version, it is the "slides up and bottom" the type of handphone :P Stylish right???!!!

I left my handphone at the edge, on the left side of my bed. Which means it was very very nearby my head…I would never do that in my life actually~ I scared…I was very scared…in case it explodes, good luck to me, I could go to PLASTIC SURGERY then. But…I believe I can’t survive at all if this happened!!!

My handphone remained steadily in this position…and I was still dreaming in the LALALALA land. I can’t even hear my mom woke up and prepared everything for the morning. I can’t even hear a single thumping or chit chatting noise. I was really like a DEAD FISH….:P

I woke up at the 0950hours…I thought my mom should have gone to work. House was very quiet and in silent. I wanted to grab my handphone, was….trembling, I couldn’t even reach my handphone even though I wanted to much~ SIGH…see, you say, was I really tired out???

At last I managed to grab my handphone…I saw few messages…from my colleagues and a friend of mine. My friend said in first message… “Had your breakfast already???"

(Oh ya…I was thinking…were you coming to pick me up for breakfast????!!! HAHAHAHA, suddenly I had an urge to have Krispy Kreme Doughnuts. HAHAHAHA :P Thank you first~)

Second message, it was after “don’t know” how many minutes from the previous message since I didn’t reply him. I wanted to reply, but my mind was…got spelled from the LALALALA land. Sleeping is nice, is good for health ok. He said… “Are you ok???”

Oh ya…I wanted to reply him so much…trust me, I wanted. I won’t ignore my friend’s messages. But I just can’t. Hopeless…I was so weak, my mind was so blanked. My hand movement was…squirming. HAH!!! Then I just dozed off again into dream land.

Roughly 1100hours….at last, I was awake!!! YEEPIE!!! My hands were returned to normal, I could continue to type my messages :p It was such a nice sleep…if you refused to agonize, don’t think so much because it’s fruitless to ponder about it anyway.

He said “Now I can confirm…my message could make you drowsy~SEDATIVE!!!”

Wah….sedative??? Really??? Emmm…maybe, could be true also. It was like got a spell from you… “MOON, go to sleep go to sleep…once you awake you will meet your PRINCE CHARMING.”

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Yup yup PRINCE CHARMING…and this is my PRINCE CHARMING… ^_^

TADAAA!!!~PRINCE MAC LEOW!!!

"KIKI LALA" from my DAD~

My “KIKI LALA”….I am really indeed missing my “KIKI LALA” School Bag :p

When I was 7 years old, I was so petite…was so eager to embark my life into another stage. I can’t wait to step my tiny feet into the primary school’s gate. It was called SEKOLAH RENDAH KEBANGSAAN METHODIST (ACS). It wasn’t a Chinese School, instead it was a fully-conversed Malay School. Most of the teachers were Malay. Dad sent me to this school, reasons being were Dad wanted me to converse well in Malay and English Languages. Nevertheless my cousin sister was there, dad initially thought she could take care of me. Hah…when I was Standard One, she was already Standard Six??? How was she supposed to take care of me??? Even me, I didn’t understand also. Nevermind, in fact, that moment, I loved that school so much. Less homework, sometimes I didn’t even have a single homework!!! Nice right???!!! It was like a heaven. We had lots of Chinese students in that school too…apparently, I wasn’t so lonely at all.

I was shy, I was timid, I didn’t talk much….for the first day at school. I only talked with the Chinese boy whom seated beside me and I still vividly remember his name till today although I barely could know where is he now!!! That first day of school…after class dismisses, I didn’t know where to wait my Mom. Oh well, actually I knew!!! Mom has told me million of times….i just that, I felt bored, so…I followed this boy walked side by side, chit chatting till the end of the road. Then in a sudden, I heard a “HONK” sound, it was loud and clear!!! Saw my Mom’s car, and I got nagged till I reached home. SIGH~

I was close to my Dad when I was a kid. Oh ya….Dad bought me the whole series of “KIKI LALA” to school…from school uniform, water bottle with “KIKI LALA” fancy cloth wrapper, shoes and not to forget my school bag!!! It was PINK in colour…with “KIKI LALA” cute pictures!!! I loved that bag very much!!! I was really the “ROCK STAR” in that school…all of them were so jealous of me. I looked like a PRINCESS~ (Now I knew why, I adore bag so much…it’s all because of the “KIKI LALA” Bag. SIGH again.)

Now, I am closer with my Mom…maybe because my Dad used to work at outstation, that’s why. We hardly can spend time all together.

I used to stay late with Dad in the living room, we both lying on the mattress, watching TV especially when there were the launching and holding of OLYMPICS Season. I didn’t know what was OLYMPICS all about, I didn’t even know what was SPORTS all about. All I knew…when I dozed off like a baby on the mattress, Dad will hug and carry me to my room sweet room. Hihihi, I loved those feelings. I am a extremely pampered person till today.

Then the next morning, Dad will wake me up…with my crumpled pyjamas, without brushing my teeth, not combing my hair, with my smelly small “KIKI LALA” blanket, Dad will drive us to Market to get some breakfasts. It was roughly 6 in the morning. I still remember clearly I loved “CHAR SIU PAO” at that time. Hihihihi….and some dimsums “SIU MAI.” HOORAY!!!! It was like a heaven to me again~

Whatever I wanted, Dad will get it for me…without asking me why. Dad allowed me to drink soft drinks at school when I was a kid, Dad allowed me to bring extra 50 cents to school so that I could buy sweets and chocolates for myself, Dad immediately will buy me a new pair of shoes when he realized my feet have grown an inch bigger. Dad didn’t want me to borrow TEXT BOOKS at school, he said… “that was for not affordable people, if you borrowed it, you will cause them lose a series of text books which they could borrow.” Dad wanted me to use brand new text books, Dad wanted me to bring some nice candies and chocolates when I celebrating “HARI KANAK KANAK” at school. Dad wanted me to learn musical instruments so that I could be a better person…. I used to learn ORGAN when I was a kid. Ended up…I quit at last when I was Form 3. I just…I am not a talented person in musical. It would be better if he sent me to singing classes…. :p

Dad didn’t even think I could score lots of “A” in my PMR, SPM and STPM. Dad didn’t expect I could graduate with a Bachelors’ Degree holder in UM. Dad thought his daughter is an ordinary girl. Dad seldom sees me study at home. Hahahaha…. I studied very hard each and every day, only Dad didn’t know it because he was busying at work. I won’t end up crying when I was undergoing my examination, I won’t even cry at home when I was doing revision. Hahahaha, my studies were the pleasant and without stress. I still can watch movies…go shopping with friends and family as usual.

As time goes by, I realized my Dad and my Mom are getting older. They are aging seriously. I felt scared. My mom…she has wrinkles around her eyes area. She has grey hair. My dad…he is getting tanned and tanned due with his exposure to the sun while working. Dad doesn’t have much hair. He is going to bald soon in any of these days :p Then me myself, I have grown prettier, more feminine…I started to earn my own money with my own feet four years ago. It wasn't a grand amount but ever since that day, I didn’t ask a single cent from my parents. In fact, it’s my turn to get them the things that they wished for :p

Sometimes, I wished I could return to 20 years ago. Then I wouldn’t be…then I wouldn’t be flying now. Maybe I would be a NURSE or a TEACHER ^_^ For my family photo, please click here ya :p

BABE, I hate YOU :P

I still think that short hair suits me the most ^_^

BABE………….I HATE YOU, YOU ARE SO MEAN…AND FUNNY!!!~

HAHAHAHA…. I just returned from work, on my way heading home. I was sharing the same transport with this bubbly flight attendant. She was very talkative like me…we haven’t got a chance to fly together yet but we both did share same transport for plenty of times. In the van, normally we love to gossip, gossip and gossiping!!!!! There is nothing much we can do in the bumpy horse-riding “van racing” van….it’s either take a nap or gossiping~ Just now, we had a conversation…once we have boarded into the van.

Me: Dear….your watch is nice, cantiknya ^_^ What brand is that???

She: Oh ya….GC, GUESS COLLECTION.

Me: Must be slightly expensive than GUESS right???

(I knew this because I am wearing a GUESS watch~ I can’t wait to buy a new watch for myself, this watch is kind of huge, I don’t think it suits me anymore. I prefer a more feminine watch :P Moon is finding reasons for shopping again. SIGH!!!)

She: Ok aje…murah aje…CABIN CREW kan kaya…Gaji kan RM10000 sebulan!!!!

(Damn, apparently the two drivers were seating at the forward seat…stared at the rear mirror, pretended as though didn’t listen any of this…but I can feel…they did listen ok!!! They were murmuring in their heart…. “WOW….RM10000 sebulan???? Betulkah????)

I was muted….didn’t know what to say. Got a shock…RM10000 per month????!!! I wished too in my dream ok, not even XX% of it….for what we are earning currently. RM10000????!!! HAHAHAHA!!!! I wished too company would treat us like a princess :p If RM10000 per month, means I would be flying 30 days per month, 24 hours in a day ok!!!

Me: Arrrr………..Shhhh….driver dengar le Dear. HAHAHAHA…yes exactly…my aunts all thinking I am earning RM10000 per month seriously!!!! HAHAHAHAHA~

She: Ya kah??? HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Cool~

Me: You don’t believe me??? You go and ask around…your relatives must be thinking you earn lots!!! You are damn wealthy rich!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA…Stewardess mah!!!~

Then…we took out our DECEMBER roster, had a peep on each other’s roster. See see we would be flying together or not :P

She: Babe…next day you have to wake up at…..3 in the morning lah….you have got 0600hours reporting for KOTA KINABALU daily flight!!!

Me: Ya lor…I am robot mah….see, after that I have got BANGALORE daily flight then straight the next day LABUAN single nightstop. I am exhausted lor~

She: You know…in this world only two types of people will wake up at 3 in the morning…..!!!! One is “PENCURI” another one is “ORANG GILA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

(So which category I am??? I am falling into the “ORANG GILA” category or the “PENCURI” category????!!! HAHAHAHAHA…this is funny!)

Me: Ada lagi…STEWARDESS also lor…has to wake up at odd hours!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! We both were laughing out loud hilariously.

Out of a sudden, that driver was happily and energetically making his right turning!!!!!! Was steering his steering fully to the right without pressing the brake I guess….My colleagues half body fell into me. HAIYA….she didn’t manage to hold the upper handle, the turning was too speedy!!! As I said… “Van racing mah!!!!!!!!!!!” I felt a little pain honestly since we both are huge size :p We are not the petite type of stewardesses. Flesh bumped into flesh, no jokes seriously!!! SIGH!!!~

At last, I have reached and I had to get off from the van…waving BYE BYE to her.

Me: Bye Dear…take care ^_^

She: Bye Babe…see ya, take care too ^_^

If we both flew together, I believe the aircraft ceiling will collapse…cursing passengers all the way!!! :p And we don’t even give a damn to any passengers….!!! Believe it or not??? :P

一前一后

那一天，感觉特别阴冷。虽然牵着他的温手，也深深地感觉到。。。好想离对方好遥远。就好像站在他的身旁，感觉到他的体温，可是越来越陌生。心里所刻下的伤痕，还是无时无刻地隐隐作痛。

最近。。。习惯了一前一后。他走前，她却走后。她走前，他便走后。

这样子维持下去的话。。。难道真的有缘无份吗？原来两个人走在一起，真的很复杂。复杂到让我好辛苦，好绝望。

她需要的就是他的疼爱和关怀，抽出多点的时间陪伴她。。。

她不希望两个人每次吵吵嚷嚷。因为她懂得，他和她都累坏了。

如果这世界上有奇迹的话，可不可以容许在她的身上再次发生奇迹呢？？？

YEAR of 2009...

Throughout the year of 2009:

~I cried, I yelled, I wailed…I laughed, I smiled.

~Flying up and down like a robotic flight attendant…hardly get myself a decent rest. Was thinking to tender my resignation letter, ended up I am returned to square one.

~Wanted to pursue my Masters, yet…I failed.

~SINGAPORE…it’s like her second home. Been travelling to here each and every month…only GOD knows how I felt.

~LOVE…is always complicated, not even once it was simple. Was it we made it complicated? Or our mind is complicated??? I wished it was easier.

~The person whom I care…and love, it seems getting far far away from me. Our soul isn’t stay and hold strongly together. I can’t truly comprehend him.

~But there were times, I felt so in love with you, you made me smile…..but now???

~I ain’t afraid to fall in love, but I am afraid, very much afraid in letting go. I am not as strong as others think.

~Could you please….let me know what’s in your mind??? Only for this time??? I am exhausted.

~I learned to cook…at least a decent meal. Because of you, I wished to cook more for you.

~Friends said I thought too much…maybe it was just nothing at all.

~Once again, if you could stay in Malaysia…things would be different~ Very much different.

~This moment, I fear to see you more than excited to see you. I knew I wasn’t any better at all, I looked like a crap too. I knew I wasn’t being considerate enough. I am still learning.

~Thanks to a friend, whom always be there for me recently and lend me a pair of ears, listening to me patiently . It’s a blessing, truly appreciate that.

Year of 2009, for me…it’s all about learn and relearn again. LIFE it’s all about learning~

People says..."I AM A COACH COLLECTOR????!!!!"

Although I ain’t tall and I used to think that I am tall…that’s why I love Sling Bag very much~ Picture snapped in Singapore, my Dear’s place :P

I am COACH COLLECTOR!!!!?????????????

By having….one COACH Handbag, one COACH sling bag, one COACH wallet and one COACH wrislet… you are calling me COACH COLLECTOR!!!???????????? FUNNY~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! Laughing out loud!!!! Oh I see, then…how about previously, before I fall in love with COACH, I was an avid fans of GUESS. I had nearly TEN GUESS Bags before…what shall I be addressed then????!!!! “MISS MAD with GUESS??? MOON GUESS GUESS??? MISS GUESS OBSESSED???!!!

(Those Ten GUESS Bags, some were being gifted by my friends ok, I seriously didn’t buy all~ Don’t get shocked ya~)

If truly compared with my colleagues, honestly….i am nothing :P Not to say I am bluffing or exaggerating here. Flying people always enjoy the opportunities to travel abroad. Certain branded bags, it’s very cheap to get it abroad because it’s local made there and its their own uniquely product. If you are willing, just top up extra few hundreds for a “well known branded” bag, which will last you for years and years…why not??? The quality is really good and fine. MEN will never understand, don’t ask their opinions :P

I am not carrying a LV, CHANNEL or HERMES~ COACH is just a simple bag. Plus, I bought this during SALES ok~ After buying it, I did feel guilty ok, for me, it wasn’t cheap at all. None even once it was cheap although they were having awesome sales. LIFE…is tough, I need something to reward myself~

I love and adore nice bags very much. For me, I feel secure if I had a bag, when I walk out I must carry a bag. Unless I go for “Night Market a.k.a Pasar Malam,” then I won’t be bringing a huge bag please~ A small wrislet or wallet will do. HAHAHAHA :p

My Cute Cute "ANJA" Children Pillow...~

I knew I knew…I am like a small kid. I bought an “ANJA” Children Pillow at IKEA Children Department yesterday. See…the background!!! The pillow is cute isn’t it??? That’s why I bought it~ It was pretty cheap, it costs me only SGD3.00…YEEPIE~ I wanted to hug this so much when I was sleeping in bus…Or else I could bring this during my stays in overseas. Pillows in Hotel are heavy, bulky and huge. I can really get suffocated…if I hugged those huge pillows while I was sleeping :P

Oh ya, on the left side…is my newly bought little pouch for my Handphone. I love those puppies and “sheepies” printed on the pouch. Besides, one of my favourite colours is blue~ Loving it!!!

Not to forget, my “SHOPAHOLIC” Takes Manhattan!!! I didn’t exactly follow the sequence. I have already finished reading “Confessions of Shopaholic” and “Shopaholic and Baby….” Now…tuning back, I am reading “Takes Manhattan….” ^_^ Nice books, truly recommend for all those whom happily read my blog. It’s hilarious, funny and witty~ Must buy!!! ^_^

First time took BUS to SIN~

This morning, once again I was waving Goodbye to Singapore, the beautiful city of MERLION. Each and every time of departure from Singapore, my heart was very heavy as usual. The feelings were unspeakable~

This time, I blissfully made up my mind, gave it a try on bus. I have never taken bus before to Singapore or to any of long journey cities. A flight attendant, with the special privileges that I am enjoying at this moment, I always prefer to take flight. Hassle-free and safe. Of course return fares for bus are far cheaper than return fares for flight. Even though I do have rebate on air fares, but still…to Singapore isn’t cheap ok!!!

Bus was fine, I managed to lie down and took an hour nap. Rest of the time, I just spent on listening my MP3, playing with my Handphone, reading “SHOPAHOLIC” book and gazing out through the window. I was kind of enjoying the scenery, although in Malaysia, you have nothing much to gaze really. Indeed, I don’t like to keep the curtain closed at all the time. Nevertheless, I wouldn’t be knowing where is my exact location then. I am always very vigilant…a little bit of unusual noise, it awakes me horrifyingly. So I hardly can sleep well neither on flight nor bus~

Pretty impressed, the bus seats look exactly like Business Class seats in Malaysia Airlines. Of course the colours are different. Yet, it came along with foot rest as well...basically it was pretty comfy for me. Air-conditioned was chilly cool, bus wasn’t that bumpy like riding a horse, cushion was soft and brand new. Paid for RM104 for return journey, so it was quite worth a penny ^_^ So no complains ok...although i wished it was a DOUBLE-DECKER bus with highly equipped with personal TV on each and every seat~


I looked so tired~This journey was a little rushing for me....because of LOVE~ Bear with this picture please, reflection of the curtain and the bus' dimmed lighting, my face was flushed...SIGH!!!

Things that I detest are…I had to get down from the bus three times before I reach my ideal destination. Firstly at YONG PENG Rest House…this was fine, since I can go to the LADIES and grabbed some foods to fill up my hunger tummy. Secondly at Johor Immigration Centre…Lastly at Singapore Woodlands Immigration Centre. The distance between Johor and Singapore Immigration Centre is quite near actually, within 15 to 20 minutes drive. That’s why I kicked my ass off from the seat unwillingly, it was really nearby, why do we need to get down from the bus and queue up for a long queue for both immigration clearances??? Make it a longer distance, then I could rest more in the bus before I proceed with the second immigration clearance with all my belongings. I found it very funny...flying doesn't need to clear immigration within 15-20 minutes. I knew, once again it can't be compared, maybe i am not used to it :p

My Memory???

This picture snapped roughly 2 years ago. I guess so…OH MY GOD, I can’t even remember when, I am browsing my old pictures now and I couldn’t remember when did I snap this picture??? Am I suffering from DEMENTIA??? My memory is deteriorating vigorously…this is so horrifying!!! I am so scared.

I don’t want to suffer from DEMENTIA at this age please…I still want to go for HONEYMOON~ I still want to remember clearly which countries I have been to and which countries I haven’t been before. I mean it, I really seriously mean it.

CLEO Mag~

It’s CLEO’s Time ^_^

Just got my this month CLEO…I am going to flip through pages by pages this fabulous magazine later, right after I log off.

It’s time to “refreshing” myself with latest fashion, trendy make-up, and so on. I love CLEO very much, started to grab this when I was 15.

DECEMBER, Month of Seasons Greetings….everyone shall have a CLEO on this particular month. Go grab it~ It’s worth each of your penny :P

"Keep Your Mouth Shut MOON~"

First time ever in MY LIFE…four years of flying…I received an explosive BOOM in my FACEBOOK's inbox!!! I could say he is my flying colleague, not close, worked with him once recently. Me and another stewardess were gleefully brought up a topic about him since they both knew each other very well. It wasn’t that awful right??? Just a topic~ Girls love to chitchat ok.

I can assure….next time I would rather keep my MOUTH shut…whenever or whatever they ask me!!!

Or I would prefer to mute myself!!!

Yesterday, it was a really GREAT wake up call for me….far better than my handphone’s alarm. Usually, I love to check my FACEBOOK via my handphone before and after a night slumber. It’s already a habit for me, I can’t get rid of this. I saw “1”….this number in my INBOX. Oh ya, I was happy…I thought it must be my blog’s reader a.k.a my lovely fans messaged me. YEAH!!! Nah…..YEAH????? Moon….it was too early for a “YEAH!!!!!!!” ok.

When I gawked at the name of the sender…OH…it was him. I already felt something wrong somewhere!!! My feelings were ferociously strong.

NO DOUBT, I was been attacked by an explosive BOOM, full of vulgar and disrespect wordings, yet it was a TAWDRY mail I could say.

First time ever in MY LIFE….People screwed me upside down left and right in a mail!!! This is interesting~FUYOH!!!!!

First time ever:

~People asked me to KEEP MY MOUTH shut!!!!!!!! (This is cool….can’t I have freedom to talk???)

~Things I didn’t comment, he thought I did comment. (I don’t even have time for that, if I did have time, I would rather improve my blog)

~He claimed that I disrespected him….. (All these while, I remain a good rapport in Airlines. People whom have flown with me, they knew me well…except one Monkey Ass was trying his very best to ruin it…long story, it was roughly 3 years ago and till know he hasn’t wanted to let me go!!! Oh ya, Monkey Ass from The Land Below The Wind, thank you so much for the kind hand and hard work, everybody knows who is Yin Mun in this Airlines, I am the ROCK STAR!!! DAMN YOU!!!!!!!!~)

Monkey Ass: For your information, keep it up your good work. I would just remain silent. I won’t say a thing. If you wanted a fight…come on, I don’t think I will lose to you FAGGARD!!!

From yesterday onwards….i have told myself, I won’t talk so much, I won’t comment nor say a thing when people throw me a question. I am MUTED!!! Actually I couldn’t be bothered so much, I don’t have much time…if there was, as I said, I did rather post a decent blog for my readers ^_^

彩色照片

人生。。。充满了彩色幻想，无数的惊喜。也因为无条件的等待，才会有美好的结果。

VIPs and VVIPs on board

Seriously…there are habits that pretty hateful and disgust a flight attendant whenever you are on board. I do agree, very agreeable, each human has different kind attitude and character. Sometimes, those “selfish and standoffish” attitudes, we as a flight attendant…it’s kind of unbearable for us. We do feel like kicking your ass out of the aircraft!!! Too bad, we can’t do this, we have no obligation to do so unless if it was safety-related matters. Just because you are an ass, we can’t really kick you out although we don’t feel like serving you the tray of meal. We still have to serve you…because this is our duty. NO CHOICE OK!!!~

Lots lots and numerous of gossiping on board. Let’s commence this with VIPs and VVIPs on board :p I did witness certain with my own eyes…some stories are genuinely from my colleagues.

~Someone always loved to bring along a bottle of “Bird Nest” on board. Requested crew to make it warm or hot for her. For your information…tiny aircraft like BOEING 737-400 series, we only have ovens and water boilers on board. We don’t boil or steam raw foods on board, we don’t cook neither. We only heat up meals in the ovens and benefit the water boilers to brew hot drinks. She was upset and angry, was yelling upside down. Ended…eventually she didn’t even want to have the “Bird Nest.” She was sleeping throughout the flight. Now wonder she always appeared flawless and fabulous on TV, the secret is “Bird Nest.”~

~Married couples have boarded into aircraft slightly later…we politely asked her would she like to have a glass of juice (welcome drinks in Business Class)…she was still mad about the ground handling agents and they both had excessive hand-carried luggage, more than four if I am not mistaken. She yelled to us…. “I DON’T WANT JUICES…I WANT ACID SO THAT I CAN POUR IT TO YOUR FACE!!!!!!!” Wah….i was still new at the moment, I didn’t know what to say. My colleague was in shock. We just ignored. If now, I believe I would definitely give her a good lesson!!!! Respect others in order to earn a respect for yourself ok….Mind your bitch language please!!!

~He was stronger than us….wanted us to stow his huge luggage into the overhead compartment. He was healthy and muscular. For me…easy breezy, no worries. Hihihihi…My fingers and both hands would just point to the left and right…front and back…show them the overhead compartments which are empty…let them stow it themselves regardless who you are. We don’t care :p Shall we care??? “ONE MALAYSIA”….i don’t racist and discriminate people. Flight attendant is a fair and lovely person.

~Some of them…as though never have eaten aircraft foods before. They would chuck vigorously every single thingy we have on board as long as it can be eaten. When they are on TV…they are so gentlemen, polite yet humble. When they are on board…they eat like a “MONSTER!!!!!!”

~He appeared handsome and good-looking on TV, too bad on board, he would press his feet onto the bulkhead, lifted up his legs 90 degrees, both legs were shaking like a “grass-trimming machine!!!” Oh Gosh, it looked so awful. TV personality…they should be more graceful, aren’t they? They are not…pathetically.

~Some even wailed out loud “AIR ASIA is better than MAS!!!” Oh ya, by all means, freedom in choosing, if you are not happy or satisfy with us, don’t fly with us. Don't ever try to be funny and mention this on board in our aircraft, it will only make you look dumb and one class lower than others. BYE BYE~

No doubt, some are nice. They are humble yet courteous. I always loved to serve them. It makes me respect them more. When you are a flight attendant…you will get to witness lots. As time goes by, you will get numbed with all these bitch and ludicrous attitudes. Close one eye, open one eye…would be ideal for you ^_^

鄭伊健~一生愛妳一個

作詞：梁芷珊　作曲：陳光榮　編曲：陳光榮

喜歡你　我最清楚這感覺　

從前妳是妳　從前我是我　

現在縱使不清楚　我最愛妳甚麼　

尋覓你　留住妳　全憑直覺

其實我真的相信　愛情的直覺　

從前尋遍這天邊海角　

不經意等到　心中愛情主角　

愛你一個　像是浪漫愛歌

想你一生也愛我一個　想你心意屬我　期望妳跟我　長路也走過　

Wooh... Wooh.... 准我一生也愛妳一個　准我相信直覺　

請將一生的幸福也付託給我　

常在妳心裡　愛著我

My first ever REEBOK Shoes!!!

This is my pair of REEBOK Sports Shoes. It’s Clementine colour. Bought this recently during the Pre-Hari Raya Sales in Dubai. It was too tempting, after 50%, it only costs me RM100 for this pair of shoes. It’s a REEBOK shoes ok!!!!!!!!REEBOK!!!!Hooray!!!!~

I haven’t worn it till now. I don’t know to where I shall wear this. Shopping???? No…because I prefer my feet to be well covered by CROCS, it’s light and I can jump up and down with a pair of CROCS. I can run to left and right then….:P I ain’t going to torture my feet with a pair of 3 inches high-heeled during my wonderful shopping moment. HAHAHAHA :P

Sight-seeing??? Emmm…maybe, can also…if I managed to go for a vacation with friends or family. Oh ya….excluding flying, it has been a while I didn’t go for a vacation. I am really longing for a vacation. Furthermore, 4 years in airlines, I never claimed myself a FOC tickets at all. See….flying is busy :P Company would really laugh out loud…if everybody behaved like me. They can really save lots of energy….Human Resources Department would be more lively than before, because they would have no one there to claim their FOC tickets!!!~Then they could go for their Tea-break and “whatever-break” as their wished!!! Awesome right???

I don’t have many shoes or sandals. I don’t have a wardrobe for my shoes either. Not to mention a “Shoes Room” ok. HAHAHAHAHA…. I am having 3 pairs of CROCS, a pair of VINCCI flat sandals, a pair of high-heeled sandals for clubbing, party and functions, a pair of whitish embroidery one inch-heeled sandals and a pair of this REEBOK!!! That’s all….sometimes when I gaze at my shoes, I murmur to myself… “Moon, why on earth you don’t buy more sandals ok, you shall love shoes more…it’s lovely and it can match greatly along all of your clothing.” I felt so so so bad. I want more SHOES~

But this isn’t worst still until you have seen my “Clothing Wardrobe,” I don’t have many clothes or shirts or skirts or pants…. Sometimes I do feel like a GEEK. A pair of jeans or denim skirts is always my brilliant choice. I love those…can’t live without those. For top, I always prefer simple and nice top…Baby-T maybe with some charming designs. I ain’t a dashing and chic person. I am a simple person ^_^

Of course, to be honest, there were plenty of times, I felt like changing my style of dressing. But it just didn’t work at all….SIGH. In return, my brother will reward me a weirdo gaze…See, how am I supposed to change my style if my brother laughed out loud hilariously???!!! SAD~

BAJU KURUNG....

Snapped in the month of March, 2009 ^_^

My first time-ever posing with “BAJU KURUNG….”

Eventually a piece of “BAJU KURUNG”…in fact it really makes my life easier especially whenever I am scheduled for classes at my “flying” training academy.

As long as you step your feet into training academy, we need to be in formal attire or “National Attire.” Might as well I just have this “BAJU KURUNG…” Furthermore, I won’t catch a cold there because the air-conditioning is freezing cold~

As a reminder, I really do need to walk like a “Japanese Lady whom is her KIMONO and wooden sandals.” Because I can’t even speed up my footstep yet I can’t even run because of this “BAJU KURUNG.” I am more ladylike then :P

Then passersby will start questioning me…. “Are you Malay or Chinese??? You look like mixed….” I am a pure Chinese pathetically…SIGH, I always wished I have a mixed ancestors, then I am officially a mixed. Yet, I am really pure Chinese…my entire family members, all of them happily got married with a Chinese, not even one with different races. See….pathetic or not??? Even me, my loved ones is a Chinese~Pure Chinese!!! :P

CURTAIN CALL

作詞/濱崎步 作曲/Kazuhiro Hara 編曲/Yuta Nakano

我聽見了 你的聲音

聽見你在呼喚我

我看見了 你的臉龐正在對著我微笑

你聽見了嗎? 我的聲音

聽見我在呼喚你

你看見了嗎? 我的臉龐正在對著你微笑

現在這一刻 最想說的一句話

uh~很難

說得明白

但即使是這樣的我

這首歌千真萬確

就是要送給 親愛的你

出自我真心的一首情歌

我聽見了 你的聲音

聽見你在呼喚我

我看見了 你的臉龐正在對著我微笑

你聽見了嗎? 我的聲音

聽見我在呼喚你

你看見了嗎? 我的臉龐正在對著你微笑

這是要送給 親愛的你

出自我真心的一首愛之歌~

MEN@MAN

Today, I was out to town with my flying Colleague….Cathy. She is my buddy too.

Apparently, we talked lots, we chatted about “MEN.”

“MEN….” What I could say about men here? To simplify it, women need men and in return men need women.

Yet men are not meant to be understood by women so do women are not meant to be understood by men.

We are here for each other…men and women. As time passes by, I don’t really keen to understand men at all. Because it’s so complicated. I did rather not to know, not to understand :P It’s all about freedom and trust.

人生

月亮傻了。。。

她很累，很想入睡。。。可是她很想再写一写。

现在。。。她正在听着“玻璃之城”的“今生不再.”黎明唱得很动听。听了又再听。。。真的好想打哭一场。

我们。。。为和我们会。。。我应该说为和这世上会有分离告别呢？

为和没了的东西我们特别怀念呢？为何拥有的时候我们不珍惜呢？为何。。。。为何我们不给彼此一个机会呢？难道。。。我们真的有缘无分吗？

为何这世上，我们同时可以爱两个人，为何不能拥有两个人呢？ 为何要两个选一个？为何你要说你爱我呢？

或许这是。。。人生。人生如一场梦。。。一场一旦你发了，就不能醒觉的梦。

Money can buy COACH, but not HAPPINESS~

I thought it was supposed to be happy. Well, it was supposed to laugh out loud, giggling and smiling all the way right after I have got a COACH Bag. Yup….at last!!! I managed to buy another COACH, a simple and plain Sling Bag. But to be truth to myself, I can barely smile now. I feel….feel miserable yet gloomy~

I am always very cautious with my spending, I am a frugal person….But I love bags…all sort of bags. My choices would always be “GUESS” and “COACH.” I wouldn’t even gaze at other brands at all. This is me…. :P Stubborn and loyal. Typical “LEO” girl.

Still…I feel so miserable now. Although my desire has been fulfilled, but I still feel speechless. I can’t really define my feelings here.

Well….one by one first:

~I felt more lively and happier few years back, roughly 1-3 years ago. Started to fall in love with “GUESS” Bags. I would definately buy it if I found a design which was nice and suit me. It was cheap…It hardly can cost me more than RM500 for a huge handbag. For a sling bag, maybe around RM200-RM300. From time to time, they would have 40% which made me flew high up upon the sky, it was definitely a good buy!!!! After discount, a huge handbag, I only needed to pay roughly RM250-RM300. This can really make my mouth open widely and laugh out loud!!!

If compared the lifespan of a GUESS and a COACH, the quality…definitely COACH would triumph over GUESS. That’s why I love COACH.

~I spent my hard-earned money to reward myself a GUESS Bag, I felt satisfied and I felt…I was useful and functional. Now, I feel that I am malfunction then. SIGH!!!

~A little reward from my loved ones…a COACH Bag, I should feel exhilarating. In fact, I feel so so so BAD~ I am spending his hard-earned money into a bag????!!! Why can’t it be something else Moon??? Something which is…not fashionable, neither clothes nor bags. Something which is fruitful for me or for both of us.

~When I was carrying this bag at the Shopping Mall just now…. It didn’t really make me stand out from the crowd, it didn’t really make me feel glamorous, it didn’t really make me look like a Princess. Indeed, I felt like a piece of crap.

~Recapping….10 months ago, when my boyfriend hasn’t got a job yet. Was waiting an offer from Singapore, I still remember clearly, stated in my mind. We were holding hands in hands, rambling at MidValley Megamall. When I saw GUESS Boutique was having clearance sales, I can’t say a word, I was speechless…I just pulled his hand with my forceful energy and walked into the boutique. I have got my first ever “PINK” GUESS Sling Bag with 40%!!! I was really really really happy…even though it was only a GUESS and yet as a little reward for myself after getting my monthly salary. It was so joyous…seemed like Christmas was on that day itself, Santa Claus was standing gleefully beside me and I was singing joyfully….. “JINGLE BELLS JINGLE BELLS JINGLE ALL THE WAY…WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS, WE WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!” It was like a Christmas Present for me even though Christmas has just over.

~Truly, I have learnt one lesson again, priceless lesson….MONEY REALLY CAN’T BUY HAPPINESS. If can, I would always choose love and to be with the person I loved always.

COACH Clearance Sales on 6th DEC, at Armada Hotel!!!

NO!!!!!!!!!!! THIS CAN’T BE REAL!!!!

COACH is having Clearance Sales on the 6th of December at Armada Hotel, Petaling Jaya!!!! From 9am-4pm….and yet I am working on that particular day. Hilarious!!!! 30%-70%.....how am I supposed to resist it? It’s irresistible, I can’t resist it. Only two sectors KUL-TWU-KUL, would it be a little “over” or “too much” if I take a sick leave@MC??? It has been…nearly one year and six months, I haven’t reward myself a MC. I am a very hardworking person, responsible person, how about this time…I just give myself a kick out of it…take a sick leave maybe.

I have been waiting patiently for this kind of Clearance Sales in ages. Oh GOD!!!!! I MUST GO I MUST GO!!!!

30%-70%!!!!!!!! MY DREAM BAG, maybe finally I can own my DREAM BAG ^_^ My MADISON, MAGGIE, POPPY, HAILEY…. SIGNATURE, I am going insane soon!!!~~~ Oh, this is like a dream~LALALALALALA.

Fine, I will just go and tell the doctor that…. I am having period pain, I can’t go for flight or I can say I suffered from diarrhea since yesterday night, whole night I was in the toilet!!! Or I can say I am having back pain, I need a rest. Or can I just say… I am freaking tired, I don’t feel like flying today, I am heading down to KL soon, you know Dr, I need my COACH desperately…three COACHes at home aren’t enough!!! Do you want to “tumpang” one Dr????

Hah……..i ain’t good in pretending. I ain’t good in cheating either. HOW???? Well, I bet because of this, I am not going to have a deep sleep for these few nights.

VICTORIA'S SECRET is in my Handbag~

Initially, i thought my COACH Signature Purse is too huge and heavy for my flying handbag. I wanted to transform my handbag a little lighter....because i am suffering neck and shoulder aching ever since i started flying....Price to pay as a flight attendant huh!!!~

Therefore, i have changed it, replaced my COACH Purse into this MISS ANNA Little Pouch. It's weight-free and very light :P On the other hand, i don't wish to dirty my COACH Purse and scratch the buckle, that's why. SIGH, I love my COACH ok :P

Thought i could have a very light handbag from now onwards....i pretty like it, it's way lighter than before, i could twist my handbag to left and right for my previous flights. When i walk, it seems i could fly.Yet, I only had a small bottle of BODY SHOP's 30ml Oceanus Perfume in my handbag. So...it doesn't cause my handbag any impacts at all. But unfortunately, i have spotted VICTORIA'S SECRET's Body Splash long time ago at KLIA. Since my BODY SHOP's perfume is going to wave BYE BYE with me soon, i have grabbed VS this morning right after touching down from Penang ^_^ STRAWBERRIES & CHAMPAGNE!!!! Loving it. And this 250ml Body Splash is definately contributing me another one kilo of heaviness to my handbag. SIGH~

"Those Things" in....Room!!!~2

One of them was yelling………….. “ROOM NUMBER 435!!!! OUR ROOM LAH!!!!!!!”

I was trembling and wobbling in my room…what should I do??? Should I call security??? I gazed at my GUESS watch, it was two in the morning!!!!

“BANG BANG BANG BANG!!!!!!!!!!!!”…..They were knocking my door!!!!! Immediately I gave a quick gawk around the room, and put on my UNIQLO Cardigan…. “This is my room, not their room. I am staying in this room…what the hell is happening???? It’s two in the morning, for God’s sake, I need to sleep ok!!!” I started to murmur vulgar words………DAMN!!!! &*%$#@!@#$%!!!!!!!!!!

I wobbled myself to the door………lifted up my courage, hold a deep breath, gave a peep through the peeping-hole. Huh…….i saw……….i saw………a man and few men….a man in yellow T-Shirt, a huge man. He wasn’t tall…but he was huge. Few men were standing behind him along the corridor. I can barely see their faces because peeping-hole’s visibility was very blur.

I was speechless……………I wobbled back to my bed, I wanted to lift up the phone handle and ring for security. At the same time, I wanted to ring my boyfriend too…because I was so freaking out. I was trembling….just a second!!!! My room’s phone rang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just gazed at the phone sternly and steadily!!!! Who called me in the midnight??? It wouldn’t be my colleagues…because they were asleep and I only told one of them that I have moved to fourth floor. Who was the BASTARD called me????

First thing flew across my fragile mind was……..JUON and ONE MISSED CALL!!! I hate that dumb ringtone in that movie..."Dang Dang Dang Dang Tang Tang Tang Dang." Nope, I am alone in the room, I ain’t going to pick up this call!!!! I ain’t going to listen this stupid call!!!!!!!

It rang twice, long-rang for twice……..then it stopped!!! Then those men at outside have disappeared when I peeped curiously once again, it wasn’t anyone standing firmly outside my door. Thanks to GOD.

Immediately, I snuggled into my duvet….spooky thoughts started running insanely across my mind. Was it “those things” or GHOST???? Well, I do believe in GHOSTS and SPIRITS.

I was pondering….this room, I am staying here, sleeping in the comfy bed…is this room really clean??? Clean in the sense of……..you know, no eerie and scary incidents had happened in this particular room before.

Those men…maybe they were inhuman…they died in this room a decade ago maybe, being murdered or committed suicide, so they were here for….for repeating their incident of the day till the sin has been vanished off. Then only they could be reincarnating into following life. Ok MOON!!! Don’t think so much ok, please stop and pause your wild imaginations. I love to ponder, that’s why~

I was tired….i was hugging my pillows, was praying to GOD….refused to ponder, then I just dozed off till the next morning. Yet I thought….maybe it was bunch of drunken morons whom wrongly opened my door. Maybe they were thinking they were staying on this floor…initially it was different floor. Ok, this sounds better and relieved. They were drunk…they were human MOON~

"Those Things" in....Room!!!~1

A week ago, it was my most horrifying moment during my stay in a hotel. Throughout these four years of exhausted and hilarious journey of flying, I didn’t really have a “spooky-encountered” with those “things.” But nevertheless, I did encounter “something” before….it was my feelings, I felt something was wrong somewhere at certain rooms during my stays. It already became a norm, very ordinary to have such feelings in a hotel room. Because we wouldn’t know the ancient history of these hotels.

A flight attendant, we are used to stay over in certain places. All around the world, reason beings are:

~We already exceeded our flying duty period per day. We needed a rest, a decent and peaceful rest.

~This is one of the privileges, let’s say becoming a flight attendant and you don’t get to see the world, what’s the point???? :P

~Hahahaha, so that we could have a wonderful chance to getaway from our family….then we could really do our shopping!!! It’s kinda awesome, to be honest!!!

Yup, a week ago…I was in MIRI, SARAWAK. I don’t really fancy this tedious city because we don’t get to shop here, there is no grand shopping malls at all. As for sight-seeing, tourist attractions such as Mulu and Niah Caves, Long House…they are quite a distance from the hotel we are staying. Usually once we have arrived in Miri, we would just…REST, have a good rest and sleep throughout the night or even day depends on our arriving time.

That night, I arrived in Miri past midnight. I was so exhausted due with the over-demanding of passengers, triple sectors (we were doing Penang and returned to Kuala Lumpur before we could proceed to Miri), load was full all the way, yet…we needed to distribute BASKIN ROBBINS’ ice-creams as a little reward for each and every passenger during this season-greetings’ school holiday (I detest to distribute ice-creams, passengers seemed like never seen ice-creams in their entire life before….they looked so so so….annoyed, it was like an “ORANG UTAN” waiting to be fed with handful of bananas!!!! All I can was….i grimaced at them because I couldn’t bear with their ugly and disgusting body languages and facial expressions!!! I knew I was bad~)

After checking-in, in a hurry path, I proceeded to my room, gently insert the room card into the card-slot right after I have opened my room door. Hoooray….i have got my room, I am going to sleep soon. I am going to take a nice hot bubble bath first then apply a sheet of “MY BEAUTY DIARY MASK” on my supple face, watch TV….at the same time flipping through my “SHOPAHOLIC AND BABY!!!” I bet after an hour, I can just doze off like a baby :P That was what I first thought once I entered the room…..but!!! Nope, I realized my room was so gloomy, none of the lights in the room was working except the entrance and bathroom lights. This can’t be real….i can’t sleep without lights. It’s already a habit for me to sleep with all the lights on!!! Lights are my great accompany. I wanted to reach for the remote control, was in an urge to switch on the TV, yet I couldn’t find my remote control………remote control wasn’t in my room!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!

Quickly I pulled out my baggage and myself, wander down to lobby and I managed to change my room from sixth floor to fourth floor, room number was 435. After a hot bubble bath…and I have done everything which I mentioned above…I dozed off unconsciously while watching AMERICA’S “SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE.” Lalalalalalalalala…………..~

In a sudden, my body was half in the dreamland, another half was awake in reality. You can imagine this, I was like sleepwalking ok. I heard a loud babbling sound!!! Someone was talking and yet murmuring….no, it was a bunch of people were murmuring outside my door. I heard…I clearly heard…someone was trying forcefully to open my door!!! They inserted the room card into my door, they were twisting my door handle left to right vigorously!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!! I straight away jumped out from my bed like a Chinese Ancient’s Vampire, stood up, and I was completely in shock~

Was I dreaming???? What was happening actually???

(To be continued........................................)