Never been to London~

My heart was clenching in pain when I saw your text message at 2.50am this morning. After that, I can barely fall into dreamland. I admit, I didn’t sleep well for the entire night. Today’s flight, I looked like a dracula@zombie who has been wandering around hopelessly, targeting for victims to suck their blood out. I looked like a crap for this entire day till now, I am in front of this desktop, wanted to write something.

You told me…you are heading to London soon, next year in the month of May to complete your “PEDIATRICS’” final examination, will be returning to Malaysia in the month of July.

(On ya…London ok!!! I have never been to London at all although I am a Flight Attendant! This is so shameful...DAMN!!!)

When I got this text message, my heart just sank into….deep ocean once again. The feelings were miserable, I felt like….not waking up again anymore for flights. I don’t feel like flying anymore. He made me realized, deep into my thought, in these three years….all these while, I haven’t been changing much neither improved at all. I am still the same, flying quarterly around the globe, not waking up and doing anything fruitfully. Please give me a tight slap!!! I can’t halt it, I started to hate myself~

You are going to be a specialist in Pediatrics soon. Maybe a Pediatrics Surgeon in a year time. How about me??? Well, I am just simply a Flight Attendant which I don’t feel glamorous at all. Maybe after this, you will no longer stay in Seremban anymore, this small warm city. With your wondrous qualifications, I believe you will be migrating to Singapore or Australia soon… I will still be the same, the old Moon, staying in Seremban and can’t breathe without flying.

I did think of resigning…going to Singapore and strike for my career. But now, I don’t think this opportunity is still valid for me.

I was pondering…in these three years, what have I done???

~Yup, I have my wonderful blog website. I really appreciate those who read my blog daily. Thank you so much!!!

~Learning Chinese Language from time to time…started it three years ago when you have left me including writing and reading.

(Because I knew you barely could understand Chinese, I wanted you to know that I do know things although I am only a Flight Attendant. Moon is a very stubborn girl!!!)

~Keep on learning English Language, establish my power of writing and comprehending in English Language.

( I knew my English was awful when I was with you…)

~I knew more about shopping!!!

(COACH and COACH again, LONGCHAMP, GUESS, DERMALOGICA and so on….When I was with you, initially I only had one GUESS handbag, I didn’t know what was DERMALOGICA all about, I was using mixed of certain skincares on my face!!!)

~ I knew how to cook at last!!! Not too great….at least a decent meal. Soup, Meatball Spaghetti, Mixed Vegetables, Sweet and Sour Chicken, Tofu and so on…. Before this, I didn’t know how to cook, I didn’t even know what was cooking all about.

…………………………………See, nothing at all. That’s all I could think of it. My life has only improved a little. Pathetic right??? I feel like crying….my future seems shattering now. I am totally muted, speechless and hopeless. By right I should have completed my Masters or in the midst of completing my Masters….but I am not at all. I can just go and bury my head into the bucket of sand which Mac Mac likes to play with it at my home garden. SIGH!!!

Estee Lauder "XMas Pack" ^_^

Christmas is coming….Jingle bells jingle bells…jingle all the way!!! Yeepie….ok well, I am working on Christmas Day ya!!!! DAMN it!!! Seriously…@_@ Nevermind, I believe next year Christmas, I am off!!! Since my contract ends in the month of November year 2010…I shall be having one or two months off after that. Yeepie yeepie!!! :P

Dear gently asked me to choose one of the ESTEE LAUDER Christmas Packs at TANGS, Orchard Road. I have chosen this….on top, Pure White Linen Christmas Pack, it comes along with a tube of 50ml Body Lotion and a 30ml EDP. I like~

Price wasn’t that costly…it was really cheap. Only SGD68 for this Christmas Pack ^_^

P/S: Out of curiosity, I asked. How come you don’t buy me the COACH small coin purse, it’s likely the same price? He said… “No no no no more COACH at this moment, I already got for you two!!!” Well….mission failed again…hopeless :P SOB SOB SOB~

Confessions of Shopaholic!!!!

Spotted this at THE PAGE Bookstore in VIVO CITY while I was waiting for my best friend, Pei Chin. Miss her so much, that breezy evening, was my first time meeting up with her ever since our graduation ceremony…which was approximately four years plus ago. Time flies!!! She is working in Singapore…yet I am working in Malaysia, so we hardly could meet up. She has to eat more, she is still so skinny like before. I am afraid, if wind blew, she will just fly away….scary huh!!! :P

My favourite book….Confessions of Shopaholic by Sophia Kinsella. Regretted that I didn’t buy the entire series….i only bought two of it. SIGH…wanted to buy all, hopefully I can get the entire series in Seremban. Please please please…let me have those books!!! I love this author so much!!! :p I just can’t stop reading it!!! Not even a day!!!

This book made me laughed out loud, I felt so hilarious!!! HAHAHAHAHA :P Luckily I don’t shop like her, if not…I would have dead very long time ago…full of debts!!! :P

Pondering of Mrs Dr.....Just pondering ok!!! :p

My third day in Singapore…before we heading to ZOUK. I love this picture, we were at BUGIS Mall ^_^

No no no~!!! That couldn’t be….what will happen to me and our future if he has returned to Malaysia???

Of course I do wish he can return to Malaysia…but then….???

First of all, I ain’t a materialistic person. But I thought I could have another few more COACH Bags if he got to stay working in Singapore… Everyone knows Singapore pays you well, high income but work like SHIT!!! This is the fact. If he returned…my COACH??? GONE!!! I can’t even step into the store anymore, all I could do is…degrade myself into GUESS….then I will look ten years younger than present. Awesome right??? Well, this is not a brilliant move, not an awesome idea. Not GUESS maybe LONGCHAMP…yup LONGCHAMP sounds better!!! Oh ya actually COACH doesn’t sound so vital to me, but I simply love those bags and adore their designs, it’s simply fabulous…suit me!!! I can always afford to buy it by myself…but if someone could sponsor, it sounds nicer right??? Especially from your loved ones :P

Second…if he returned, I won’t be able to fly to Singapore each and every month…then I won’t be able to window shopping or do my little shopping at ORCHARD, VIVO, TAMPINES and BUGIS anymore!!! All I can is…stick to JUSCO Seremban 2!!! Nothing much there... possibilities of bored to death are inevitable. I couldn’t gaze at LV, COACH, BVLGARI, TIFFANY, GUCCI, ORIGINS, GUESS ACCESSORIES, CRABTREE & EVELYN, UNIQLO, VEEKO, CHARLES & KEITH anymore…some of these stores, I can’t even get it in KUALA LUMPUR. Even though I barely can afford all of these, but I would love to gaze and touch it. No harms right by acting so…. :P

Third, I won’t be getting my Singapore monthly allowances anymore… :P

Fourth, how about our future? In Singapore…he will just stay there obediently, sign up the resident form and stay there for another 6-8 years maybe. For this coming decade, he would still be a medical doctor, if he managed to complete his masters, he is a SURGEON then. Oh ya…then I will be marrying to a SURGEON!!! Surgeon of Orthopaedic!!! Sounds cool…I am MRS DR TIMOTHY TAN… :P I love that!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Then I could just kick my company’s ass away and resign!!!!!! I don’t care, I will be migrating to Singapore and be one of the “DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES” there and he is one of the “GREY’S ANATOMY” there…not DR MARK SLOAN neither DR DEREK SHEPHERD. He is DR TIMOTHY TAN a.k.a The Bones Healer!!!! Sounds cool right???!!! :P

But if he returned to Malaysia…and decided to quit medicine, how??? Then poor little me…no more “MRS DR TIMOTHY TAN” for me…seems like we both will be losing every single little thingy…But we will enjoy our priceless time together. How??? I am pondering. Doctors has got no life, sometimes I wished he wasn’t a doctor. For them patients always come first….if he indulged himself in corporate world, he might do it excellently too. For me, he is always a brilliant and smart guy. If in corporate world, would he turn himself into a mean and cruel person??? Would he still have time for me then??? I am yet really pondering….

Heart is shuddering.....

On my way to Singapore, The Lion City of Merlion…in KLIA, waiting my turn of departure.

Last Tuesday, I was gleefully waiting for my flight to arrive in Singapore. Time passes swiftly, nevertheless today, I am returned to Malaysia. I am home now. Feeling a little LOST at this moment, whatever I do now seems so feeble. Nobody would ever fall in love with “DISTANCE relationship”…I detest it, I don’t even like it. In fact, it SUCKS!!! To be honest......

When returning from Singapore, I always looking forward when could I pay a visit to Singapore again, or when is he coming back to Malaysia for visiting me and his beloved family???

When he says he wanted to give up everything and wished to return to Malaysia…of course in my heart, it wanted this so much!!! You can fetch me after flight, we could cook for each other, we could go for movies together since it has been ages we never held hands in the cinema and we could do hundred@thousand of things together. I can even hug you and caress your hair softly in the living room, we both laying and stretching ourselves on the cozy sofa, hugging the fluffy pillows while pursuing latest TVB dramas. We could comment about the actors, actresses, the story’s flow, the music, the song…everything!!! Lovely~

Isn’t that awesome??? Yet how about our future??? Does he have a bright future if he returned to Malaysia…..he has to restart all over again from ZERO maybe. Could he withstand this? In fact he already half-way through completing his “housemanship” in Singapore, isn’t that a great thing? But if he returned to Malaysia……I am pondering, what will happen??? I can’t be so selfish…he will lost everything maybe. My heart is shuddering in coldness.

Moon went for clubbing!!!

Oh Gosh...this cup of hot-melting chocolate is so unspeakable, it's just NICE!!! I am a hot chocolate person, i ain''t a coffee person. Well, basically i slept quite late yesterday night...or shall i say i slept very early??? I slept at roughly 4 in the morning!!!

Yup, surprisingly, i went for clubbing yesterday night!!! Friends whom knew me well, they knew i don't fancy in clubbing because i don't dance!!! My confident level in dancing is...ZERO!!! Or maybe below the ZERO par...it's heading down to negative! You better offer me a microphone, at least i can sing!!! I always loved singing!!! But not clubbing because i neither can dance nor drink...pathetically.

Yesterday night, was my first ever attempt to Zouk in Singapore. I wasn't so intrigued. Music was pretty tedious, i only heard some thumping effects..."POM POM POM POM..." I didn't know what kind of music it was as i said i seldom clubbing. Nevertheless, I prefer some R&B kind of musics ^_^ At least i can sing along with them.

HAHAHAHA...I was pretty tipsy after i gave a shot on the Bailey's and Vodka Lime. See, i have told you, i can't drink. Alright, i always thought i can drink, being inherited by my Dad, in fact...i am not even 10% up to Dad if i compared. SIGH.... after that particular two glasses, i was a little drowsy, i was yawning all the way...Yup the miraculous effects of alcohol!!! I wanted to sleep..... :p

Ladies@washrooms ...always the perfect place to rest when you are a little tipsy. Just lock yourself in the cubicle, and lean against the side wall :p Ok i admit, i did that yesterday night, i was just too sleepy. Just for roughly about 10-15 minutes ok!!!

Singaporean girls are pretty...sexy and they look awesome. No doubt, they are well-groomed and nicely-dressed. At that moment, i realized my make-up was suck!!! I didn't even draw a thick black eyeliner on the bottom of my eye, i didn't even glue a fake eyelashes on my eyelid. Wasn't i supposed to have that??? Emmm....maybe i was too laze for that :P

I wasn't that awful ok, i was wearing FOREVER 21 white sleeveless top, UNIQLO tight straight-cut jeans and a pair of huge earrings. Although i didn't wear heels, but i was sexy as well ^_^

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I am in Singapore now...all i can say is...RESTLESS days for me. Hahahaha...at home i didn't need to do house chores, in Singapore...i need to do a little, a little of house chores :p

Will be updating my blog as soon as possible once i have arrived in Seremban, home sweet home ^_^ See ya....Hihihihi!!!